Paisley Joy

 I have many friends. Some even, have what I have, self doubt. It stinks. And sucks. But sometimes you've gotta embrace it. I'm gonna do an post after this on quotes so don't be upset about the no pictures one. When I was littler, I didn't understand self-doubt. Like, isn't it good to be conscious of yourself and have guilt about your sins? The answer to that question is yes. But self doubt isn't only guilt cuz you did something naughty, it can be about your looks, your voice, your talents, your strengths, your weaknesses. Another reason I thought self doubt was sketchy is because whenever I saw positive affirmations on the internet I thought, man. If these  people listen to these, they're gonna be greedy.  But no.  Positive affirmations only make you feel like you're a better person. You're always gonna have a tiny part of you that feels shy about being you, but the affirmations shut it a little. It doesn't make you greedy, just a makes you fee

 A year ago yesterday, my dog died.  He was the best thing that ever happened to me.  And when he was gone, I felt like I was gone too. I always knew that he'd move on one day. But I wasn't prepared. This is the story.  I wrote a play for my school, and we'd worked for months to practice for this Wednesday. The energy was everywhere, I was so excited. The play went wonderfully. No mistakes. It was a perfect day. But something was off. My mom didn't smile once. She looked like she was fighting tears. My dad had no expression. I think he felt numb. After the play we sang a christian song called Shoulders. These are the lyrics.  Lyrics I look up to the mountains Does my strength come from the mountains? No, my strength comes from God Who made heaven and earth, and the mountains When confusion's my companion And despair holds me for ransom I will feel no fear I know that You are near When I'm caught deep in the valley With chaos for my company I'll find my comfo